M&P

It’s been so long…

WOW! I haven’t been on this for a while…well lets see..

JayRyan & Jayliana are WONDERFUL! I love these two even though sometimes they can drive me insane. They both are learning so much and are growing way too fast. I don’t plan to have another one until Jayliana is 3 or older, depending on how my career search goes..But honestly, I do LOVE babies! and I do constantly think about having another, but seeing JayRyan and Jayliana changes my mind. lol. 

Phu & I have been through a lot this year so far. Lots of ups & downs, lots of stress, and lots of anger issues I guess.. But I feel like we’ve grown so much love for each other and for our beautiful babies. Til this very day, he still makes my heart melt and I love him more and more each day. I ain’t going to lie, he can be a total ass most of the time and I do yell and bitch a lot, but we’re happy and still very deep in love, thats all that matters.

College is done…well sort of. Graduated with a certificate and one last class in the fall for my AAS degree and just for the hell of it, I’m taking an accounting class. Hopefully it’s not hard..

Job search is officially over for now. A temporary full time job works good with the babies right now. I do also have a part time job interview coming up so I do hope I can work both! It’d help me and our small family out a lot financially. I’m hoping to SAVE for a house of our own within like 10 years from now…lol. Hopefully after this temp. job, I get enough experience to start my career within the next year or two so I can be happy financially. Until then, I’m happy with what I have right now.

Dear Santa,

I’ve been a good girl this year and here is my list:

• LOTS of Hello Kitty Pajamas sz. M
• A new cell phone because my dash is a butt crack
• A portable heater for my room so my little family can keep warm at night since our bed is on top of our heater and its covering it.
• Winter warm clothes or accessories
• Make up so I can look pretty
• A hand held dirt devil vaccum for my car!
• & gift cards with at least $100 in it

Thats my list Santa. Please make it happen!

Sincerely yours,

Moung Saetern

Seriously, I’m soo freakin tired of being pregnant. I always bump my belly onto something and it hurts. My ugly belly button looks so fuckin gross. This belly is too heavy to be in the middle of my body. My damn fuckin lower back hurts and is hella achy. I need a damn massage! I feel like my belly has “dropped” but honestly I can’t tell if it has or not yet. Shes still moving HELLA and it hurts sometimes. When I touch my belly its hard and I feel like she has no room to move..but I guess she does since she still kicks hella. Almost 33 weeks, she needs to hurry the eff up and get out! Cause I am damn tired of being pregnant and I feel so damn miserable with this fat heavy belly.

Cleaned most of our bedroom out…and sort of JayRyan’s room..but I don’t know what we’re going to end up doing with JayRyans room anymore. We’re bringing the crib to our room…it can convert into a toddler bed so we’re putting JayRyan in there. If he decides not to like it..then We have to put the crib back together and put JayLeAnah sleeping in the crib. Either way, one is still going to be with us I guess… I think it’d be easier if both kids clothes were in our room since we have a his and hers own closet space..but wth are we going to do with the extra room?! Storage?? I don’t know….a month to think of what to do with that extra room…UGH!

Thanksgiving was great! I seriously ate hella. Got up probably almost 10 times to get food. But it was nice seeing the family together. 4 hours up at the outlet in Marysville, we were so tired and cold so we left. Got a bunch of stuff for the kids. Woke up Friday morning around 10ish and went to Target. The sale there was alright.. didnt do much Friday except napping and southcenter later that evening. Now its Saturday. Nothing to do besides stay home and do nothing until its time to get ready to go to Lisas house later today. Im so tired and bored but JayRyan is up and that means hes going to want to play. Tomorrow is the day devoted to school work lol. I have 2 things to upload to the teacher and I think 2 other assignments that is due Monday.

Christmas is almost here! I love winter! I know for sure I’m not done christmas shopping but hopefully we’re not broke by the time christmas is here either. Wouldnt wanna be broke spending all the money on everyones gifts. So far all the little kids are done.

Im over 32 weeks now and I can’t believe shes almost here. I can’t wait to finally meet and hold this little girl that has been inside me for so long. The little kick boxing girl inside my uterus. Life is going to be so much tougher but more filled with love when she gets here. I can’t wait to rearrange the room and just change and clean up the room just for her arrival! When she gets here Im hoping JayRyan gets his new toddler bed and actually sleeps in it. Our room is going to be so full and squished with a queen size bed, a crib, and maybe a toddler bed. Ill make it all fit! lol. I love organizing the room! UGH! I can’t wait for her to come!!! I seriously wish she comes 5 weeks early so when fall quarter is over I can spend at least those 3 full weeks with her before winter quarter starts. Cause winter quarter Ill be so busy with school and everyone says winter quarter is the hardest. and I chose winter quarter to add 2 extra classes…AAHHHHH!! I’m only thinking of getting school finished and graduating so I can get a really good paying job to support those 2 kids and of course help Phu out with the bills..

I can’t believe its almost been 3 years with Phu. I can’t believe how much time is flying by. Feels longer that I’ve known or been with him but just almost 3 years…March will be our 3 years since our very first date. I wonder what he has plans for that day…I still remember that whole day like it was yesterday. It was an amazing day I must say. And after that day he showed me what a really good man is like. I was just getting out of a relationship at that time when I first met him in February…and for some reason we were introduced at the right time. I never met a guy that treated me with so much respect and romance. He knew the right things to say, the right way to talk to a girl, the right way a gentleman would act. He was as sweet as can be..made me laugh and smile, made me feel like I was the only one around..His family loved me from the get go and it was nice just being with him. We’d do everything together! I was the one he put first before anything. We were practically a couple in love but not actually “in love..” at least not yet. Then we made it official on April 23rd. We spent his birthday together, my birthday together, our first summer together we went camping, over summer got pregnant, and after I got pregnant with JayRyan he has been there right next to me by my side since the very first day we were introduced back in February. He was never in doubt thinking twice of leaving…at least he didn’t show it. He was probably scared about having a baby with me so young, but he knew what we were getting ourselves into and we knew that it happened and never would we thought twice about not having the baby. I was so happy that he decided to stay by myside the whole time. Made me realize how much he meant to me. Spent our first Halloween together, our first Thanksgiving together with my family, our first Christmas with my family, and so the list goes on. He even stayed at my house when I was still living with my parents. I only had a twin bed, yet he still slept in that small bed with me. EVEN when I was pregnant. We both still fit in that bed. lol. I love him so much for everything he has given me, taught me, shared with me, and I love him so much for always being there for me. Even though we never once broke up, but always there were times when we almost did, our love was too strong to be broken up and separated. With help from a couple people to help us realize what life would be and what would be missing if we weren’t together. Almost 3 years and never once did we break up. We have our ups and downs but what couple doesnt?! We argue and fight, but what couple doesnt?! We get over it so it doesnt bother us. Anyways, I love Phu so much. Hes more then I could ever ask for. Hes the best bf I ever thought he would be. Hes a great father to JayRyan and I know hes going to treat his little princess just as equal as he treats JayRyan. 21 years old and 2 kids….You’d never think he would end up with a life like this but hes made it seem like its easy. Hes such an amazing guy and I wouldn’t know what life would be like without him. Hes my everything and all my heart has longed for. I am truely blessed to have him in my life til this very day. I love you honey.