Lately..
Sometimes it’s irritating when you over think things, like you think too much over something that happened and it just annoys the hell out of you! Anyways, either it’s hormones or its just me be being the bitch that I am.
So last night I had this dream.. how Phu cheated on me with this girl and tried to hide it. Thinking I wouldn’t find out but I did and we broke up and everywhere I went I see them together and I guess it looked like his life was so much better with this other woman.. and then he woke me up.
But the type of person that I am thinking over and over about this dream this whole day just bugs the living shit out of me. Someone tell me what the hell this dream is trying to tell me! Maybe its giving me a clue that hes not happy being where he is with me and that if I was to let him go, maybe he’ll be happy or something.. but bitch! I’m a selfish pregnant girl. lol. So I wouldn’t want to just let him go…Not after all we been through and just how much in love I am with him. UGH! Hate this shit. Hate that stupid BITCH! Wished he never met her ass…sad thing is…this other girl..I’ve never even met, yet she calls and txts him… Trust goes a VERY long way in a relationship, but being in the position that I’m in, where there has been MANY times of trust issues and lying…it just makes things harder. Deep down it bothers me and hurts me, but I have to be strong for JayRyan, JayLeAnah, and myself. I think of my kids before I can even think of myself now…
